You left me behind and took away my tomorrows, took away my fantasies along with my butterflies and rainbows. For so long you took this all away along with my smiles and replaced them with tears. When I thought you were building me up you were only waiting for me to fall. When I would reach for you, you wouldn’t hold on so I fell, fell into the darkness and all the pain till I couldn’t stand on my own you had full control and I didn’t even know, couldn’t see it, hell maybe I just didn’t want to. Didn’t want to believe that you could be so cruel, that you had left me, got bored with me…tired of me. Yet I had to be the one to hold you up had to grab your hand before you fell.. Guess it’s true when they say love is blind. Because I let it happen over and over again. Letting you break me, hurt me emotionally and physically. Got I remember telling you I rather you hit me because that pain would eventually fade but the emotional scars would stay. And my blue eyes oh how you did a number on me. I’m now covered in so many scars. You took so much from me and fed on my insecurities now I am full of self-doubt and so much hate towards myself. You took the child in me away now is like a fucking empty shell. Now I’m left behind with all the pain while you’ve moved on to another but I’m left to wonder will she meet the same fate as me or is she everything I just couldn’t be.
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